Do any one here know how we or why we got this magazine addiction or fetish?
For me I clearly know the first time I got my hand on a fashion magazine. I do remember the feeling. That feeling trigged something in my brain and it was then instant clear what Im about to be sexual aroused to.
When all my friends was stealing their older brothers porn mags and got aroused, I just stole my mothers fashion mags and jerked off to them. Fashion magazine is like “porn magazines” for me. This type of fetish or addiction was not easy to grow up with in my point of view. Before I was able to buy my own magazines I got pretty frustrated when my mother got new issues by mail. Just looking at the new shiny cover with that beautiful girl and not be able to hold it, feel it and maturbate to it made me so messed up in my head. My mother did not understand what the hell was wrong with me. She tried a coulple of times to talk to me but I never told her the reason. How could I? For a boy like me that was not an option to tell her my “secret”. I was forced to WAIT until she had read it and pretty much forgot it. That could be a month of waiting and in best cases about 2-3 weeks . the first part was to steal it and next part was to take care of it for the day and not to stain it with my cum when I was finished. Later when I bought my own magazines I notice that it was comfortable that my mother subscribed. I could read it before I buy to see if it was worth buying.
Nowadays I just go for the cover. And all grown up now and living with my family I feel that im pretty much back to the beginning. I have to hide the new mags and not able to masturbate to them when ever I want to….Well shit I hate this addiction 🙂